Welcome, Samantha

So apparently I forgot to tell you what a brownstar is. Well, working with more boys than I've ever worked with before, I'll warn you now, I'll be learning things are that are more crude than Paris Hilton's ladyparts....whoreparts. Her name and the word lady should never be in the same sentence. AAaaaaanywho, I found out that when a person says brownstar, he or she is referring to the anus 'cause apparently it looks like a star...a star that is brown. Now, I've never really examined anyone's anus, but I did however, take an honors Anatomy course my senior year in H.S. and I can confirm that the anus does indeed resemble a brown star. And that, my friends, is what a brownstar is.

**The best part is when Mike prank calls the cab company using a middle eastern voice, asking for a cab to pick him up at 752 brownstar- the street in berwyn, right by "hardon." Heeeeheee Oh the joys of working with these geeks. It's truly a hilariom time.**

Lately, I've realized all the things I'm being exposed to that I've never been exposed to before. I realize that it's important for people to develop strong shells as well as good connections. Knowing the right people in the right places can truly be a blessing. If I had the friends that my boss has, pshhh....there's no telling how rampant I'd run. :)

But on a more serious side, I've been exposed to the reality that like EVERYONE and their mother does drugs, more specifically coke. I don't know what the big deal is about sniffing shit through your nose to get your jollies- drink a fucking redbull, eat a sugar packet. However, now, whenever I hear someone sniffing a lot, I'll look at em like "omg did he just snort a line?" when before it was like "that dude has a cold." I can't help but feel like a chip of my innocence has been taken! Innocence, naivete...you decide. I've never really cared to know anything about drugs except what some of their effects are.

On a totally unrelated, beautiful note, I'd like to welcome little Samantha Jaski into the world. She was supposed to arrive a few weeks from now, but apparently, she has decided that she was done incubating. Congratulations on your new little cutie pie, Sherly and Steve. I can't wait to meet the petit bebe. :) I have yet to meet Anjelica's french burrito...wowsers....too many babies.

The depeche mode concert was PHENOMENAL. David Gahan is such a frackin diva, it's insane. WOOO HOOOOO!!! "OHHH!"<----What he was constantly screaming out during songs.

QOTD
"What a sexy homo."
-Sandy- (abt David Gahan)

X-Rated QOTD
"...but they're great in sweatpants."
-Edgar- (in continuation from his last quote on the x-rated quotd)

LOL I learned what a brownstar is

My computer got fixed from last spring when my personal settings froze on me and I never again got to hear my cool Led Zeppelin or my cool Foo Fighters songs. That is, until tonight.

My brother is a fabulous man for taking this Dell to his friend and givin me back my Zeppelin "that's the way."

I'm so FRACKIN sick of school, it's insanity sauce.

I was trudging to stats this morning, muttering all the way up to the 4th floor like "mother flowers, what the devil I hate school so much, when is it over?!"

Seriously, I'm sick of trying anymore. What a time to feel like that huh? Two weeks before school is over...

Good news- I'm making a killing at the new job. It is, however, a back breaking place. I come home tired as heck, but my pocket's full.

You have no idea how much I missed financial independence.

You also have no idea how much more I appreciate money and how much I want to save and not spend!

I REALLY want to sing at borders again. The last time I sang there I did Kelly Coffey's "When you Lie Next to Me" which I wouldn't mind doing again along with Bonnie Raitt's "Love me like a Man."

And guitar players out there interested? Mmm? Mmmm?

Ok, I'm out.

QOTD
"Sometimes I wish we didn't have noses so we could totally mash our faces together."
-Edgar-

"XENA- WARRIOR CLEAVAGE"
-big Kev-

X-RATED QOTD
"Boners hurt in jeans."
-Edgar-

"But seriously, do you know any girl that would actually say 'oh my God, I'm about to climax'? If a woman can actually lay there and formulate that sentence during sex, it's obviously not that great."
-Evan commenting on R.Kelly's Trapped in the Closet songs-

COOL "YER" JETS, SON

OH MY GOD, HOW ARE YOU?! I HAVEN'T TALKED TO YOU IN FOREVER!
Sorry I've been gone so long. I know it get frustrating to check out someone's blog just to find they haven't posted JACK.

Well, let's see...quite a bit has happened since I last posted. But, most importantly, I am graduating in less than one month. And even more importantly, I have my interview with TFA in a couple of weeks. And on top of that, I'm turning 23 in about a month. December will be jam-packed with all sorts of events.

It seems I have played Cupid again, but this time, I didn't have to do much work at all. These two just seemed to naturally drift to one another- like a given pull. And they're so cute, they make me want to vomit pink hearts and flowers. Really, they are adorable. It could just be that I'm finally seeing two very good people get the treatment they deserve, and it just so happens that the two are good friends of mine. I wish them the best :)

So, seriously though, I'm sorry I haven't posted in a while. I've just been feeling semi rut-ish. The last time I felt like that, all of my blogs were depressing and I am not gonna do that to you guys again.

On a brighter note, the Depeche Mode concert is on the 29th and Edgar just called to say he managed to get good seats to the Coldplay concert this spring. Do you have any idea how orgasmic getting to see Coldplay will be? If that happens, I will have seen all of my favorites in concert. Dido, Incubus, John Mayer...all I needed was a little Chris Martin & Co.

Gonna try a little somethin' new on QOTD today....

QOTD
"Is my shirt too gay, Nenny?"
-Juan-

"They're all the same! Allah this, Allah that, Nitroglycerine this, TNT that..."
-Juan-

"If not, I will punch you in your man-beans"
-Juan-

X-RATED QOTD
"Yep Doc...got first degree burns in m'lady hole!"
-Lilly after listening to her coworkers say there was such a thing as a thermal condom-

"Oh God I hate the taste of wang."
-Rob-

"Ready to take new strides"

I've got too much on my mind to concentrate on my priorities. I hate it when that happens. Especially when that priority is a huge stats exam that can make or break you.

Suddenly, I've been reminded of the past and I don't know what to make of it.

I had a few words with God today. I asked Him to lead me into the direction in which He wants me to be. I asked that He puts me wherever His will can be done. He has a plan for me. He always calms my nerves like nothing can.

I'm getting thrown into my first shift at my new temporary job tomorrow night.

Teach for America emailed me yesterday. "We are very impressed with your application and would like to learn more about you." That = an interview on December 7th. Pray for me please, people. If I get into Teach for America, not only will I be working with an organization that is pushing for social change, but I will gain so much insight into the core of the world's problems. I will grow as a person by watching and guiding the growth and confidence of those I teach. If I get into Teach for America, I will probably need lots of support because it's a long committment- 2 years. I hope they station me in Chicago- my world is in Chicago. I hope that whatever happens, I am that much closer to fulfilling my purpose on this planet.

Edgar wrote some poetry for me this morning. I think it's beautiful. It captures my nature and the exact situation that I am in:

On the precipice of change
You stand, ready to take new strides
The paths of life, so oftentimes obscured by uncertainty
Open
Giving life to new potential
Experiences awating their rightful birth
Born unto one so willing to nurture them
The gifts you have been given
Will awaken soon as well
In order to protect that which this world so silently strives to encourage

QOTD
"I'm not gonna lie, that gave me a little lady-wood."
-Lilly-

"..or make babies in the library...so they can be smart babies."
-Juan-

"Do you have money for a taco, or a soda?"
-My dad- (lol he's such a beaner, i love it)

"School can SUCK IT!"
-Anna-

Debt...and I thought I could escape you...

When I agreed to having a credit card, I told myself I was mature enought to handle it.
However, when that card was the easy way of paying off $800 book fees every semester, it was easy to...."how do you say..." rack up my debt.

So now, I'm broke as a joke and need a fat loan or a fat lover named Dominic who deals drugs and makes butt-loads of money...so much money, that his pool is not filled with water, but with 100 dollar bills.

Capital One, please stop calling my house. I'm dodging your calls because I don't have the money you seek. You'll get your money- chill. Just let me find this fat lover I speak of.

QOTD
"Can you tell me how he manages to top his own gayness with every picture?
-Lilly-

"I miss your crazy ass. Not just your ass either. All of you. ALL of you!"
-Meghan-

"It's a wa-wa solo."
-Lilly at the Gavin DeGraw concert-

"Why is EVERYBODY gay?!"
-Lilly-

"I'll only be able to take good care of you for half of this month. Catch me after the 15th when I get my paycheck."
-Edgar-

May the Flight of Angels Lead you into Paradise...

My great-grandmother, Teresa just passed away about an hour ago- I just found out.
The last time I ever saw her, she asked that I never forget her. She kissed me on the forehead, and then she kissed my hand and asked me to pray for her- all this while tears formed in her eyes. Maybe she knew I'd never see her again.

How ironic that I was just studying the sacrament of the Anointing of the Sick in class yesterday. We talked about Donne's "Death Be Not Proud" and I remember agreeing to the theory that death is but a moment...a comma, not a semicolon.

I had never interacted with her much, as she never moved away from the small town in Mexico in which she was raised. However, even as a young kid, I fed off of her nurturing ways whenever we rode into Ojocaliente, Zacatecas, where she lived and died. She was about 98 or so; a nice long life she got to experience. I don't know why I'm this sad about a person I hardly interacted with. It might be because she was always so genuine everytime that I did see her. Truth always shines bright, and so, I'm sure, she will shine in Paradise...I'll see her again.

**Descanse en paz, abuelita Teresa. Nunca me podria olvidar de usted. Que Dios bendiga su alma.
Con amor imenso, Jenny.**

November Two

I can't wait for the first snowfall.
I mean, I know I'll probably be kicking myself in the balls once I'm outside scraping snow off of my windshield....but for now, I'm picturing looking out the window watching thousands of little snowflakes, each one different, gracefully dancing into the atmosphere.

I was at school today from 11:30-10:30. Tell me that's not vomitrocious!

Bee and I have to present our project in math class tomorrow. November 2nd snuck up on us.

Walking through campus today, it hit me that this part of my life will end in a month and a half. December 16th is my last final as an undergrad, and I graduate on the 17th.
How thrilling!

I didn't tell you guys yet, but I applied to a program called Teach for America. If I am accepted, I will have a teaching position for 2 years teaching children in low-income areas. Nothing could be more gratifying. I'm waiting to hear back from them on the 9th of November. If I get in, then November truly is a magical month. Check out their website: www.teachforamerica.org

Sorry I don't post as often anymore- life got really busy all of a sudden!

QOTD
"White people scare me."
-Skerika-

"I tried that once! I tried to see if it was possible to kick myself in the balls! (she pauses....) And it's not!"
-Skerika-

Me: Awww Erika, you're so cute! I wanna put you in my pocket!
Erika: Awww, and I wanna be in your pocket.