And So Life...Happens

"People wanna know what I believe in. They think I should take a stand. Stand up, speak out- tell us about Jesus, sex, politics, the color of my lipstick...
I've tried to do the best I can, living on the right side of the tracks.
Shame on my soul if I try to tell anybody else how to live, oh man...
All I know is...love is all I know."
[KERI NOBLE- "Love is All I Know"]

I have noticed that very little things make me as happy as I am when I dance.
I have noticed that letting go of pride makes you weightless.
I have noticed that it takes a lot out of people to partake in the world of romance...it's quite tiring actually, in that it leaves you feeling as if you've just completed a marathon.
I have noticed that we all run around trying to find a way to love and be loved in the safest way possible, but is love safe?
Sometimes you don't get the one you want when you want them, & sometimes I think it's for the best.
At times, I get the feeling that God spares me from irrepairable heart-aches and tragedies by making things seem illogical and difficult for the immediate.

I hope, for the sake of my outlook on amorous dealings, that soon, someone can thoroughly show me that it's not all shot to shit.
Love really is all I know, which is why I can't just walk away from it as if I had never known it was there, and why I am able to detect when someone is only posing as a lover.
I know love, I have felt it and given it; and I am straining myself trying to keep the faith that I will feel it and give it again.

It's no secret that I devote much time and thought to love.
When I see it flourish in those around me, hope surges within me; but I also wonder why it can't be me.
My most recent encounter with romance lasted a flimsy, shallow month- the same as the last one I had been in. I do not like to compromise my expectations, & those did not work out because they should not have....I was being looked out for (as I mentioned above.)
I'm keepin' the faith....
Someone somewhere has got to be able to make me want to stick
around for good.
Someone somewhere dreams of love the same way I do- and all there is is the anticipation of that beautiful encounter that has yet to occur....

QOTD
"These pants kept getting wider & wider & I'm thinking, 'this doesn't make sense!'"
-Megbo said this as we were leaving the GAP on Saturday

"She likes her bread like she likes her men."
-Shayna said this right after I asked for white bread at Subway...lol...we had been talking about my preference for Caucasian males when I date.-

Megbo:I'm gonna light Brian on fire if he doesn't show up.
Me: Hey Shayna, help us think of things to do to Brian if he doesn't show up!
Shayna: We could strangle him!
Me & Megs: Aw come on, that's just gruesome!