If it weren't for the sun and my dad....
Shitty is the perfect word to capture how I feel about today.
Today is the kind of day where you get a headache just because and nothing can fix it.
Today someone could make me cry if they looked at me funny.
I had to go collect all of my belongings from my totaled car today. My shit-for-brains sister totaled it in February, and the case has yet to be resolved. There was a mixture of sadness and rage as I took all of my crap out. Sadness bc it was my first car and now I don't have one, and rage bc I was sure that if my aforementioned sibling had been within arms-length, I mighta choked her. My father bought me the car for being a good student when I was a junior in high school.
On the long way back from the lot, my dad offered to buy me an ice cream. That, along with the beautiful sun in the beautiful sky made today not so abhorrent, at least for that moment. He offered to buy his 22 year old daughter an ice cream. In contrast, my mother was being a real tool. We came home, we sat down to eat, and of course she starts fucking with me, and being in this sissy ass state of mind that I have been in since last night, I started to cry, and here I am blogging.
Please forgive that this blog is a mixture of all sorts of things, but all of those things are unified by loss. I've experienced loss before, but it never knocked me on my ass like today.
Well, a good cry can take care of that I guess.
In the subway, the lights went out in the car we were in and all of us passengers rode in the darkness for a solid 5 minutes. It was comforting in a sense, though I can't explain how.
Possibly bc I was trying REAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY hard not to cry.
Today just "sucked donkey balls" as my sister Sandy says.
Happy Birthday to my friend Miguel.
Thanks to my supportive ass friends for checking up on me through out the day, I love you for it.
And, no thanks to the jerk-ass that made me feel like this.
QOTD
"look at 'em...all comfortable in their Expeditions!"
-Dad, talking abt the Berwyn Police dept.
Today is the kind of day where you get a headache just because and nothing can fix it.
Today someone could make me cry if they looked at me funny.
I had to go collect all of my belongings from my totaled car today. My shit-for-brains sister totaled it in February, and the case has yet to be resolved. There was a mixture of sadness and rage as I took all of my crap out. Sadness bc it was my first car and now I don't have one, and rage bc I was sure that if my aforementioned sibling had been within arms-length, I mighta choked her. My father bought me the car for being a good student when I was a junior in high school.
On the long way back from the lot, my dad offered to buy me an ice cream. That, along with the beautiful sun in the beautiful sky made today not so abhorrent, at least for that moment. He offered to buy his 22 year old daughter an ice cream. In contrast, my mother was being a real tool. We came home, we sat down to eat, and of course she starts fucking with me, and being in this sissy ass state of mind that I have been in since last night, I started to cry, and here I am blogging.
Please forgive that this blog is a mixture of all sorts of things, but all of those things are unified by loss. I've experienced loss before, but it never knocked me on my ass like today.
Well, a good cry can take care of that I guess.
In the subway, the lights went out in the car we were in and all of us passengers rode in the darkness for a solid 5 minutes. It was comforting in a sense, though I can't explain how.
Possibly bc I was trying REAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY hard not to cry.
Today just "sucked donkey balls" as my sister Sandy says.
Happy Birthday to my friend Miguel.
Thanks to my supportive ass friends for checking up on me through out the day, I love you for it.
And, no thanks to the jerk-ass that made me feel like this.
QOTD
"look at 'em...all comfortable in their Expeditions!"
-Dad, talking abt the Berwyn Police dept.
posted by LoveisLife4Nen at 6:24 PM
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