Woah Momma!
I'm in charge of my house until my parents return. My maternal instincts are heightened, and I seem to slip into that role so easily. I love that- but I don't quite think my little sister does, but that's ok, she needs a little firmness.
Mom and dad went on a trip to get away and relax. I found it odd that they took precautions prior to taking this trip that they had never quite taken before. They added my name to the bank account and put me in charge of everything, if anything should happen to them. They are driving, and I won't lie, they have me a little worried.
They said extra heartfelt goodbyes and it was just out of the ordinary. I'm praying that they have a safe journey and come back full of stories like they always do.
Meanwhile back at the ranch, I came home from work to hear that Jaclyn, my sister's 2 month old, was not feeling too well. A rectal thermometer later, she's sound asleep and feeling better.
Tonight- a family member of mine opened up to me and told me things I NEVER knew about her. Things she was afflicted with, that I guess I may have been to consumed in my own life to notice. It's a shame when we miss those things that we should pick up on. I honestly felt shame. I thanked her for sharing those parts of her life with me and asked her to remember she could share those things with me and never be judged.
Why do we miss the obvious sometimes? What is it about the hidden pain of others that is so easy to gloss over?
I have been going out, celebrating life more and more these days, and at the end of the day, I feel movement. An old group of very good friends made a surprise visit tonight and we rehashed about all the things in life that made us smile once.
I don't know- it seems that we forget to live sometimes. I try my best not to do that. I try to keep myself on my toes :)
My friend and I were kicked out of a gay bar last night. We were with Gus and his friend Juan because they're in from Texas. Two straighties were kicked out of a gay bar and I never laughed SO hard. I had so much fun being with them. My friend had never been to a gay bar and he ended up having the time of his life. It's hard not to around Gus. I did not come home last night and it was fine with my parents. I made it in time to see them off. They recognized me as someone that is in control of herself and man was that gratifying. FINALLY!!
And tonight my head is a jungle. In no particular order, I have been thinking intensely about my parents' journey, Jaclyn, my sister Jess and how I hope she pulls it all together, my friends (who are like sunshine in my life lately,) the family member who opened up to me and asked for my support...My head is a jungle, but my heart beats steady because it's wiser now.
And now- I sorely need sleep. Off I go to dream of what I dreamed last night, hopefully. I slept like a baby and my dreams were so sweet. The winds are howling right now, and its a tad eerie, but I'm so tired it really doesn't make a difference what the wind does. My girls and I are safe within four walls, where we are blessed to know what real love is.
Mom and dad went on a trip to get away and relax. I found it odd that they took precautions prior to taking this trip that they had never quite taken before. They added my name to the bank account and put me in charge of everything, if anything should happen to them. They are driving, and I won't lie, they have me a little worried.
They said extra heartfelt goodbyes and it was just out of the ordinary. I'm praying that they have a safe journey and come back full of stories like they always do.
Meanwhile back at the ranch, I came home from work to hear that Jaclyn, my sister's 2 month old, was not feeling too well. A rectal thermometer later, she's sound asleep and feeling better.
Tonight- a family member of mine opened up to me and told me things I NEVER knew about her. Things she was afflicted with, that I guess I may have been to consumed in my own life to notice. It's a shame when we miss those things that we should pick up on. I honestly felt shame. I thanked her for sharing those parts of her life with me and asked her to remember she could share those things with me and never be judged.
Why do we miss the obvious sometimes? What is it about the hidden pain of others that is so easy to gloss over?
I have been going out, celebrating life more and more these days, and at the end of the day, I feel movement. An old group of very good friends made a surprise visit tonight and we rehashed about all the things in life that made us smile once.
I don't know- it seems that we forget to live sometimes. I try my best not to do that. I try to keep myself on my toes :)
My friend and I were kicked out of a gay bar last night. We were with Gus and his friend Juan because they're in from Texas. Two straighties were kicked out of a gay bar and I never laughed SO hard. I had so much fun being with them. My friend had never been to a gay bar and he ended up having the time of his life. It's hard not to around Gus. I did not come home last night and it was fine with my parents. I made it in time to see them off. They recognized me as someone that is in control of herself and man was that gratifying. FINALLY!!
And tonight my head is a jungle. In no particular order, I have been thinking intensely about my parents' journey, Jaclyn, my sister Jess and how I hope she pulls it all together, my friends (who are like sunshine in my life lately,) the family member who opened up to me and asked for my support...My head is a jungle, but my heart beats steady because it's wiser now.
And now- I sorely need sleep. Off I go to dream of what I dreamed last night, hopefully. I slept like a baby and my dreams were so sweet. The winds are howling right now, and its a tad eerie, but I'm so tired it really doesn't make a difference what the wind does. My girls and I are safe within four walls, where we are blessed to know what real love is.
posted by LoveisLife4Nen at 1:32 AM
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